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，因为作者要兼顾读者中一部分是青少年，所以，从来不玩儿什么“手法”，整体感觉属于，平淡见真情吧。拽句文：于无声处听惊雷。有点儿这个意思。
至于Waters的小说。我也是才看。昨晚看了一部分。怎么说，的确是，文笔，感情，处理的，相当出色。难怪每次看到有关她的书评，一边倒的都是褒扬。看来，这个文学博士，不是吹出来的。
但是，我不大赞成走入社会之前的朋友们看。原因只有一个，书中的恋情是lesbian。过于美好和刻骨铭心的同性爱情描写，或许会带来不必要的引导。
昨天看这部书的时候，从第一章开始，跳着看，一直看到最后一章。我看小说向来就这毛病，一定要跳着看一遍，看完了，知道结局了，才能耐着性子从头开始认真读。跳了一边后，觉得，BBC拍的电影，尽管看的时候觉得已经很出色了。不过，对比原著，马上感觉单薄了许多。刚才跟首长说的时候，首长也说，有这感觉。不过，幸好她是先看的书。我则很郁闷。书看到最后，Maud对Sue说，“It is filled with all the words for how I want you 。 。 。 ”
而电影里，重现此景的时候，变成了“how I want you……how I love you”
不用再说“爱老互有”了吧？我这么感情白痴都已经看出来了。你这话点明主题给谁看？难道有比我更白痴的？看来，是编剧。
刚才，急不可耐地又跳到了第七章。放弃使用第一人称的Sue，转为Maud开始陈述自己的生活。非常佩服作者，只是一个起首，Maud的形象已经栩栩如生了。
楼主这句话讲得太不公平也太没有常识了。整一个自己歧视自己。Les们天天被直人的小说电视轰炸怎么没有变直呢？心里头有鬼就是有鬼，心里头没鬼的天天看也弯不了。
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我不是歧视自己。只是，这条路走起来，比你心怀着遗憾走人多的那条路，似乎要更艰苦些。走过，就知道了。
我对我老大也如是说。年青时，觉得爱情就是上帝，就是一切。等到经历过爱情后，才知道，生活才是一切。
我愿本不吃胡萝卜。但是，来到英国后，不得不吃。到现在，开始喜欢吃。也不是喜欢，反正每天吃多了，成了习惯。到最后，如果打开冰箱发现没有了，反而觉得不安。这就是生活，没有永远，只有潜移默化的改变。
而我和沈芳的感情，也是如此。既然来了，就让它成为生活的一部分吧。我不会再想十几岁时刚恋爱那会儿一般，接了吻就拉着手许诺天长地久。誓言，对我过于沉重了。但也不是就没有信心。日子一天天过去，有些人来，有些人去。我没有办法掌握别人的想法和生活。所以，只好对自己负责。对自己的心负责。少一些伪装，少一些偏激，少一些执着。至少，拿出一个最接近本色的自己，面对她，面对自己的生活。
狂晕。美利坚看似广袤无垠。纽约飞LA，基本上可以飞回英格兰了。可怜我家姑娘。
看到Sue把Maud伤害了。我的情绪也低落了。非常理解拍砖同志们当时对我的心情。拍，我拍，我拍、拍、拍！
楼上的郁闷我挺理解，不过，我也说不清这是为什么。就好比说，
记得昨晚很郁闷，给首长诉苦，抱怨很久。首长还笑。过了一刻，收到text，“This string of unfortunate events is just like shit falling out of the sky。 But it would only make sense that one thing would lead to another。。。”
“。。。you can only handle so much stress without unloading it somehow； and during this time； I am sure you don't want to deal with any relationship problems too。。。〃
今天看到书里Sue描写的情节，跳着去看了Maud的心情自白，忽然幻想起首长写这些话的神态。我就一个念头I'm full of shit！
不过，既然长这么大了，再去改变，一下子或许很难。我也没什么好的方法，本来自己也在摸索中。算了，喊句口号吧。
打起精神来！打起精神来！坚决抵制消极思想！
为了胜利，向我开炮！
歌曲啊，捞几首给你，我的歌听得太杂，太多了。有些一下想不到，找到什么是什么吧。
Katie Melua的shy boy，轻爵士。有些西皮。
Sarah Conner的A ride In the snow，轻快小调。
Enrique Iglesias 的Love To See You Cry很早的曲子，不过有的时候，特别是我狂燥的时候，比较喜欢听这种风格的曲子。
Alex Parks——Mad world 也是很老了，不过一直很有感觉。
还有一首歌，是饶舌，不过，我听到就很喜欢，歌词很动人。有一次给首长煽情，她也很喜欢。那天上午，我们两个坐着说话，听了一上午。忘记从哪里得到的了，歌名似乎是
I'm sorry
歌手是Some Dude，很有意思的名字。
贴个歌词吧，便于你查找。
This go out to someone that was once the most important person in my life。 i didn't realize that at the time。 i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you so don't really expect you to either。 it's just。。。 i don't even know。 just listen。
you're the one that i want； the one that i need。
the one that i gotta have just to succeed。
when i first saw you； i knew it was real。
i'm sorry about the pain i made you feel。
that wasn't me； let me show you the way。
i look for the sun but it's rainy today。
i remember when i first time i look into your eyes；
it was like i was there； heaven in the sky。
i war with the skies because i didn't want to get hurt。
but i didn't know why it made everything worst。
you told me we were crazy in love；
but you didn't care when push came to shove。
if you love me as much as you said you did；
then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't shit。
now you push me away like you never even knew me；
i love you with my heart； really and truely。
i guess you forgot the time that we shared；
when i would run my fingures through your hair。
late nights； just holding you in my arms；
i don't know how i can do you so wrong。
i really want to show you； i really need to hold you。
i really want to know you like no one else could know you。
you're number one； always in my heart。
and know i can't believe our love is torn apart。
**chorus**
i need you and i miss you and i want you
and i love you cause i wanna to hold you；
i wanna to kiss you； you are my everything and i really miss you。
i need you and i miss you and i want you
and i love you cause i wanna to hold you；
i wanna to kiss you； you are my everything and i really miss you。
i knew you was gonna sit and play this with your new man；
and sit and and laughing as you are holding his hands。
the thought of that just shatters my heart；
it breaks in my soul； and it tears me apart。
a time i was off； i was scare to show you；
now i wanna hold you until i can't hold you。
without you； everything seems strange。
your name is forever planned in my brain。
dammit i've been sin； take away the pains；
take away the hurt baby we can make it work。
what about when you look into my eyes；
told me you would love me as you would hug me。
i guess everything you said was a lie。
i think about it； it bring tears to my eyes。
now i'm not leaving a thought in your mind；
i can see clearly my love is not blind。
**chorus**
i need you and i miss you and i want you
and i love you cause i wanna to hold you；
i wanna to kiss you； you are my everything and i really miss you。
i need you and i miss you and i want you
and i love you cause i wanna to hold you；
i wanna to kiss you； you are my everything and i really miss you。
i just wish everything can turn out different。 i had a special feeling about you。 i thought maybe you did too。 you'll understand but no matter what； you'll always be in my heart and you'll always be my baby。
our first day； it seems so magical。
i remember all the times that i had with you。
remember when you first day you came to my house；
you looked like an angel wearing that blouse。
we hit the door； i knew it was real；
but now i can take away the pains away that i feel。
reach in your heart； i know i am still there；
i don't wanna hear that you no longer care。
remember the times； remember when we kiss；
i never think that you would do me like this。
i didn't think that you want to see me depress；
i thought you'll be there for me； this i confess。
you said you was my best friend； was that a lie？
now i'm nothing to you； you're with another guy。
i try； i try； i try and i'm trying。
now on the inside； i feel like i'm dying。
**chorus**
i need you and i miss you and i want you
and i love you cause i wanna to hold you；
i wanna to kiss you； you are my everything and i really miss you。
i need you and i miss you and i want you
and i love you cause i wanna to hold you；
i wanna to kiss you； you are my everything and i really miss you。
And i do miss you； i just thought we were meant to be。 i guess now we'll never know。 the only thing i want is for you to be happy wheather you're with me or without me。 i just want you to be happy。
今天凌晨，下雪了。这是今年冬天的第一场雪。
0点20分，关灯睡觉。窗外却意外的一片红光。
起初，我以为隔壁邻居在院子里安了大瓦的射灯，又觉得不像。心里琢磨，会不会是碰到了什么天外奇观，于是拉开窗帘，映入眼帘的竟然是一片雪白的世界。站在窗前，愣愣的看了很久。然后开始想家，我喜欢冬天降雪的时候，远远的透过繁夜荡尽的树枝，遥望被染成白色的角楼和禁城�